the farewell that made me feel.

this morning i went to alex ross's farewell and all was normal until he gave his talk.. because at that point it got better. his talk was so moving because you could tell by his eyes that he meant, with all his heart, everything he was saying. it was the sweetest thing. when i got home i tried to describe how lovely it was to my family but i just couldnt put it in words. then i asked myself, "why?" "why did that speech make me feel like i was supposed to cry?". and the answer is... i dont know. i mean it didnt touch me deep down or anything but i think it was just how sincere he was. alex could of been saying anything else and meant it but not as much as he meant this. he really really felt what he was saying. it was beautiful i guess.. just beautiful..


HERE'S TO UNEXPECTED FEELINGS,
madeline louise

jake bugg.

i am completely in love with jake bugg.
this song is so lovely.
he moves his mouth in ways that make me smile.
i wish i was one of his mates that hung out in that field with him.
i love jake bugg.
i sincerely hope you are as in love with this song and boy as i am when you finish watching it.
but just know going into it that i already called dibs on mr. bugg..
oh and you cant have johnny flynn either.
E has dibs on him.
sorry.

the poem that changed everything.

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
and that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
----
Once on a piece of paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
and he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
and that is what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and he asked him to write it more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new wet paint
----
once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
and he called it "innocence: a question"
because that was the question about his girl
and thats what it was all about
and his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
----
that's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tired another poem
and he called it "absolutely nothing"
because that's what it was really all about
and he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didnt think 
he could reach the kitchen.

the big 18.

daniel allenbach turned the big 18 today.. which believe it or not is a big stepping stone in his life! so to celebrate this momentous occasion this is what we did:


1.) during lunch we went to addy baird's car, which was out in the ruins of the american fork high school parking lot, and we opened all her doors and played the best music ever and we had a mini dance party in the oh so vacant parking lot during lunch. 


2.) after school we took our dear daniel to get some delicious thai food. it was sooo unbelievably good. addy got the yellow curry, daniel got cashew chicken and vegetables, morgan, who had never had thai food before, got the to-die-for peanut curry, and i got the pad thai! now is that a good meal or what. we all shared our lovely food, of course i ate around the meat cause vegetarians dont eat meat.. i know crazy right?!


3.) addy had to go pick up millie and take her to gymnastics so we continued our birthday adventures without her :( daniel morgan and i hoped into morgans rad gold minivan and drove away to our next destination which happened to be dippidees. i had never been so it was a learning experience for. the cupcakes were to die for except i am pretty sure i cannot eat for another week cause of this nasty big cupcake. but you couldnt stop eating cause they have hypnotizing powers which make it impossible to stop. daniel and morgan had to feed me my last bite. "no biggie." if you read that and giggled allowed.. i was not lying..


4.) next we took daniel home. aw man. only he never got out of the car for another hour or so.. we enjoyed talking. i love talking. morgan loves talking. daniel loves talking. huh what a coincidence. daniel did get out of the car once to go get his very nice neighbor a cup (as in the measurement we use in america) of milk so she could make her cupcakes.. oh the very sound of the word makes me cringe. after we had concluded every topic we were talking about we sent daniel away into the care of his family to have even more birthday adventures! 


and these are the four major steps to having fun with your best friend on his birthday. ENJOY!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL ALLENBACH,
madeline louise 

emotions vomit.

10 things that cause me stress..

1.) school.

2.) socializing.

3.) the absence of my sister.

4.) my physical fitness.

5.) utah.

6.) physics.

7.) the male species.

8.) life.

9.) fear.

10.) and stress itself!

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10 things that make me happy..

1.) the friends i have made.

2.) coffee.

3.) my family.

4.) swimming (being peacefully submerged underwater).

5.) music.

6.) an upcoming dinner party!

7.) reading.

8.) talking.

9.) louder music.

10.) and finally it makes me happy when i feel happy.

FOREVER YOURS OR UNTIL YOU LEAVE,

madeline louise

in need of an adventure.

i cannot think of anything significant to write about... nothing happened in school today, i did not solve world hunger, i did not stop the war which also means i did not create world peace, i did not jump off a bridge, i did not find homes for all children... wow i am a failure. that list took a turn for the worse and ended up being a list of all the things i did not do today. i am such a slacker. i should really get on that.


THINKING OF GOING ON AN ADVENTURE,
madeline louise


p.s. i would like to say hello to a certain someone who is not a follower of my blog but reads it anyways. you know who you are. :)

eskimo kisses

the sweetest of all kisses,


madeline louise