we shared words.

we spoke words to each other today. this may seem like such a small simple gesture but it really made me smile and i feel as though now we are making progress towards our falling in love and of course that is very exciting news.
the words he spoke to me, "i like your shoes." in this quiet cute gentle voice. when i could finally choke out my words i just said a kind, "thank you".
and that was the end.
and that is all we needed.

his name is (insert name here)

i have to write a little bit about this boy i know. he is a cool boy. he went to my highschool and he was one of the cool boys at my school. i was always a little upset with him during the school year due to the fact that i just assumed he was a little bit of an ass maybe but i was so wrong. he is sweet and the nicest boy. so before i finish writing this i would like to apologize to him and his sweet self for judging a book by it's cover. so i don't, in elementary school terms, like like him but i would definitely enjoy getting to know said boy. he interests me; like the dynamic of mr. cool. i would like to hang out with him and talk for a while.  

Dallin McKade Bacon-- October 24, 1997- June 12, 2012

        this morning i woke ready to pack and go camping with my family. but when i woke up i checked my facebook, because we live in a society where technology is everything and we have to know everything that is happening even if we don't care, and the first thing i see is an obituary article posted by a dear friend of mine. i was petrified to look at the name but my eyes forced themselves to look.. i didn't like what i saw. it was the obituary for a boy, my friend, i went to school with. he was a grade younger than me, he was hysterical, he could make anyone laugh anytime of day it was certainly a talent. he was also one of THE smartest kids i have ever known. he was brilliant he finished his freshman year with a perfect report card,a 4.0, amazing.
        all this lead me to ask, why? why did he die? i don't know why. and i'm sure i never will even after someone tells me, because he did not deserve to die. he had so much to live for. he was so so smart and funny and sweet and the nicest politest boy. qualities this world needs. there is no way to come up with any reason he should of left. his family (mom, dad, two brothers, and sister)need him more than anyone. he was a twin to his brother, he needs him. i can't even fathom a reason to why whoever or what ever took him away. 


   Rest in peace Dallin. you will be missed by so many and by me.

Q & A ses. enjoy.

Questions and Answers about me (madeline louise teresa luse:


1. 10 random facts about yourself.

1. i am a vegetarian.
2. i live in Utah but my heart live in Missouri
3. i haven't kissed anyone.
4. i really like flowers.
5. i have a Captain Rex (from Star Wars: Clone Wars) alarm clock on my bookshelf because he and it are cool.
6. i love Dr. Who and hope that one day he comes and take me on an adventure.
7. i cannot send a text message if something is spelled wrong.
8. i love going to get coffee with people i like.
9. i have a best friend. it is my sister, Emily, and i couldn't ask for a better one.
10. i have my permit but i don't want to drive.

2. What is your favorite book? and why?

• The Perks of Being a Wallflower. because i can relate to Charlie on many levels and i really enjoy the characters and story.

3. What do you know to be true?

• Nothing. that is what makes this world such a mystery.

4. How do you de-stress?

• i wish i could say i had some deep mind altering way of de-stressing but i don't. i do, however, like to just go to the pool and submerge myself for a bit. it really clears my mind.  but sometimes i end up punching a wall.

5. What event had the most impact on your life? and why?

• it's a reoccurring event really. whenever someone dies it really takes it's toll on me. it cause me to go into this the -world-is-your-oyster-well-until-you-die type of phase. it makes me think and do weird meaningful things.

6. What color makes you happy?

• chaos. get it? like the song, color my life with the chaos of trouble. no? okay well i like green too.

7. biggest fear.

• being abandoned and alone.

8. What do you do more, hair up or down?

• i try to do an equal amount of both so i dont't make my hair feel bad if it noticed i had a favorite. 

                        

                   Questions answered?

                           good.

sincerely, 

madeline louise

p.s. if you have questions for me that i did not answer, ask them to me and i will.. probably.

and your name shall be...

if i had a cat i would name it Bowie. (like david bowie? you may ask. no.)
if i had a rabbit i would name it Squirrel. (even though it's not a squirrel at all. HA.)
if i had a pug i would name it Assface. (get it.. because his face is dumb and flat? whatever.. it's funny.)
if i had a bird i would name it Lawrence. (classy.. like a bird.)
if i had a lizard i would name it Lord Reptile. (the Reptile God seemed disrespectful? eh.)
if i had a lama i would name it The Doctor. (like Dr. Who.. the greatest show i've ever seen with my eyes.)
if i had a robot i would name it Iron Giant. (well duh.)
if i had a sloth i would name it Gregory. (Is that okay, [my] Emily?)
if i had a hedgehog i would name it Pony Boy. (after my favorite [fictional] boy.)
if i had an otter i would name it Arwen. (Lord of the Rings.. obviously.)
if i had a tiger i would name it Charlie. (The Perks of Being a Wallflower. my favorite book.. isn't it everyones?)